There was an occasion the other day when I regretted saying something not long after I'd opened my mouth. It wasn't anything earthshattering or of real importance but after I'd spoken I really wished I hadn't revealed what I did.
Wednesday is the only day of the week I have to myself - Dh and I have various interests away from the house so may not be at home at the same time; there are days when we are like ships that pass in the night catching a glimpse of each other now and again but always home together by about 5pm. Theres only the one day that I don't have anything planned which means I have the whole day to myself 'cose he'll be on the golf course from 10am till 4pm. I can go wherever I want and do whatever I want.
I usually spend most of these Wednesdays at home fiddling around - could be computing , could be gardening, could be crafting, could be window shopping at the local shopping centre - (and theres the occasional time doing housework - but we cant use precious time doing that can we lol) so as strange as it may be to some I don't welcome company that day - its my day and I don't want to be bothered with door to door salesman or the 'niceties of visitors' and entertaining. Oh for the days of calling cards and being able to 'not be at home'
Nothing unusual in that - or at least I didn't think so - but theres more.
We live in the suburbs with houses all around us, theres plenty of roadway by our nature stip available for parking and a made footpath goes along the front of the house, our house is fairly small which means I can see outside the front of the house from the kitchen through the big picture window in the lounge so know if anyone is coming down the drive and making their way to the front door.
Now for the reveal - if I'm indoors and in the Greta Garbo mood (I want to be alone) I lock the doors and don't answer the door bell or the phone (answering machines are the way to go and can be interrupted once I've vetted the call) - I've even been known to move quickly from one room to another so I can't be seen and stand there till the person has gone away.
If its family.........and yes in the past I've ignored them at times.......... but they usually ring so I do know when they are coming lol..............they think I've gone for a walk or walked to the shops (the car is in the drive) so I don't feel too bad about it and if they get really insistent I do open up after a while but only to them.
SO when this person heard my disclosure she kept asking me subtle questions about my mental health - did I feel lonely or angry, and at one time even suggested I was selfish, above myself and deceiving my husband (go figure that one)
Do you think I'm odd, selfish, secretive deceiving or just protecting 'my day to myself'?
Any admissions from anyone else?